Run

I started running again, 
For my life, 
No one wanted to own me again, 
Nor did I care like now, 
I ran n ran,
Through the door, 
Past the gates,
On the Street,
Through the rain, 
Drenching in pain, 
Waiting for a name,
Fighting night and day,
Till I get what I deserve,
Not what I desired,
When would this pain end,
When would someone stop me,
Would hold me up,
After the run,
Till I rise again. . . .

Regret

We all wish everything goes right,
But it always goes the other way,
Only few tasted the fruit of true love,
Rest only lived in the illusion of it,
At the end of the day,
Nothing matters at all,
We are all alone in the night,
Remembering all the things,
We could had done,
But by then time had already flowed away. . . .

Way to Heaven

For all wanted the path to heaven,

Yet they didn't realize their greed to achieve it,
The right path is not achieved merely by,
Praising and preaching the words of God,
It is much more than that,
Something being more of a human being,
Following the right path without being knowing it,
Then only you will see past the crowd. . . . .

Trail

Sooner or later we all will fade away,
Leaving behind a trail of memories,
Done together in the moments of joy,
To make you cry,
Some places that wouldn't be the same as it was,
Some words that would be incomplete,
Still times moves on,
Memories gets washed up in the flow,
Leaving behind a fading effect with passage of time,
We move on till the time comes,
And we flow away. . .
#Mandav_Perspective

Missed

What did I miss today,
My smile has been gone for long,
So I missed out on so many things,
A fake laughter to cover up,
What did I miss today,
I missed you,
A part of myself that I'm strongly bounded to,
A sweet stream of memories. . .

Shadow

In this vast world of mine,
I'm never alone,
Nor I felt the slight urge of loneliness,
For my shadow is was always there with me. 

Path

There always be a opening,
When you are shut out of the current one,
Just look around,
And you will see.. .

Frame

For you can close down all paths for me,
Yet I will find a way,
To reach where I'm destined to be,
For no one can change what has been written.
#Mandav_Perspective

Beautiful

Nothing something beautiful will last long enough,
For it withers up,
All those beautiful things just turn,
Into a dried withered remain,
For how long can you lick the beauty,
It will sooner or later be gone,
Oh beauty oh beauty,
How long can you stay with me,
As no sooner or later,
You will depart,
Leaving behind a trail of your beauty,
Something to remember you by,
Something to cheerish by,
At the end nothing remains of you except memories.

Path

There is something I was always afraid of, I never didn't know what I was afraid of,

At the end I could only conclude it was me,

And only me,

And my greatest fear of all,

As the ideal fear "Death" didn't scare me enough,

All that scared me was dark hollow image of myself,

Struck somewhere inside of myself,

A place inside myself where I see paths,

But no guarantee of what is to happen,

A past that can I can't never go back to,

A future that I can never see beyond,

And a present that is too much for me. . .

Stray One

Here I wander the streets,
Born from a unknown one,
With my lovely ones,
Sadly we fell apart from the start,
Some do not live up their life,
And some go elsewhere to find food,
I ran here and there,
Running with the world,
With no permanent roof or food,
I fight day and night,
For my right to live,
Sometimes affection touches my life,
Makes me feel it's not so bad,
You say your life is bad,
Swap a day with me,
And you wouldn't say that,
At the end,
I'm alone,
Taken by no one,
Yet own by World. . . .

Unspeakable love

I never could stop myself from loving you,
I regret that maybe I couldn't love you more,
Maybe time just finished up,
And you couldn't understand all my screaming for you,
Maybe I couldn't express it right,
I can't say now that I miss you,
Cause you are so far away from me,
I always cherish the lovely time I had with you,
That I could never have it with someone else,
That peace I experienced after a long time,
Maybe time couldn't let me keep you,
So that I could love you more,
I just regret I'm not there to take care of you anymore,
I do love you and will always,
Yes I'm stupid,
Still my thirst never ends for you,
I'm controlling it for you,
Maybe in the end it's better that we don't talk,
Cause we both know or at least I know,
I can't resist myself from holding you again,
Taking back what is mine,
Cause I never did fake things,
I just gave my heart as I felt,
And so did I lost myself again this time,
For my happiness went away into drain with you gone,
For no one can hold someone for so long. . . 

At last

At last my overworked mind hit me,
Making me live the opposite of normal people live,
Day turn into nights and nights turn into days,
Couldn't find a reason to this insomniacity,
Here I lay on the bed wanting to sleep,
Yet I can't have a soundly sleep,
The birds are crirping and auto are running ,
Please shut me down for I need it,
People are soundly snoring n sleeping ,
Why is it I'm an outcast now,
No one to talk to ,
Someone please put me to sleep,
For I can't take more of this madness I swear,
Please sleep take over me. . .

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What do we live for???

What do we live for in the end,
It always started out with money,
And with satisfaction and then security,
Throughout our life we run and run,
We run to learn ,
We run to earn,
In the end what?,
We run into death,
We rarely go according to the words we say,
For scenarios keep changing from second to second ,
Even now,it is changing,
Ultimately is only the death who would hold you tight,
Like no one else could,
That it takes you away ,
Leaving all you earn for the learning ones,
We in the end earn for others,
For their security is our satisfaction ,
Isn't it?

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Worked

The work of the over working mind,
Here once I lay here once again ,
Writing it all again,
Thought more to avoid,
Yet couldn't in the end,
In the end,I ended up more disturbed,
And angry with myself,
For I couldn't work up anything fruitful in this life,
Be sured to realize love is only a word,
A four letter with e l r v,
Thats all it is,
Two people make it work somehow ,
God,I feel like hating love all again ,
Feel the same hatred for it again,
The time when I even hate love you from loved ones,
Don't make me go that way,
For give this piece of mind,
Some rest . . .

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Hopeless Romantic One

For I never understood how did I fall in love again,
Maybe it was all written,
That I had to be fallen for you,
Making me realize I'm so incomplete without you,
Life is somewhat incomplete without you,
Hey you! I'm talking to you beautiful ,
Please don't go away,
Be with me night and day,
For you are my lady,
And lady deserves to be treated right,
With additional service I'm gonna love you for life,
So beautiful,wanna be my life?
So that I can hold you tight,
And make you mine. . . .

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My sleep

The day finished and began before I went to sleep,
Feeling derived from self with something ,
Or just caused of my noon nap,
Nevertheless it feels so quiet,
I could hear myself breathing,
All are dead for now,
Creatures of night roam,
Away from the terror of others,
My battery is down now,
So I lay down,
Think of some words,
Make them work work,
Time still flowing away,
With my phone slipping away at my face,
Wish this solitude provide peace to me,
As I float away in my ethery world,
Where nothing is the same,
Like it was in the previous one,
At last ,time to drop the curtains for the day,
Till we met again. . .

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Welcome to my world

Welcome to my world ,
Where all want heaven yet afraid of dying ,
Its a place where you can get lots of likes but no life,
Its place where money matters more than life,
A place where a dustbin eats more than 60% of the world,
Its a place where everybody loves to watch and read about love but afraid to commit to it,
Where standard are so high that your life dry out living it,
Even the government doesn't carry whether you live or die,
Where honesty never gets paid,
Corruption is the everyone list,
For those left out are force into it,
Yet such a wonderful world it is,
Where media records first rather than saving someone,
People chatter and go away,
Where one rises,three pulls him down,
Its all nothing but people living a sheep's life,
Unique is weird that is all we know,
Fear it ! Burn it! Kill it!,
For this is my world ,
Lovely isn't it. . . .

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Tazo

Tears filled up my eyes,
As I thought you up again,
And its not human love I'm talking about,
I realized you never left my heart,
Remaining all there in somewhere in the corner,
Waiting to be found,
Triggering off any time when memory puzzles are connected,
Making me feel a deep hollowness,
That I miss you more,
It just makes us realize,
Who want to be immortal?,
Seeing your loved one pass away isn't enough proof,
That you are immortal for them,
Death is indeed freedom from pain,
But the cost of death is always high in terms of pain,
Directly proportionally to the time you live,
And for my dog,you will always live in my heart,
For it is impossible to forgot who was one of my loved one,
Miss u tazo. . . . :'(

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The day in the end

The day finished and began before I went to sleep,
Feeling derived from self with something ,
Or just caused of my noon nap,
Nevertheless it feels so quiet,
I could hear myself breathing,
All are dead for now,
Creatures of night roam,
Away from the terror of others,
My battery is down now,
So I lay down,
Think of some words,
Make them work work,
Time still flowing away,
With my phone slipping away at my face,
Wish this solitude provide peace to me,
As I float away in my ethery world,
Where nothing is the same,
Like it was in the previous one,
At last ,time to drop the curtains for the day,
Till we met again,
At the end it rained too,
With birds singing its morning chants,
Bikes and autos passing by,
And here I lay in the bed,
Till I die into sleep. . .

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Rain outside and me inside

For the pouring begin early this year,
And still I haven't had a feel of it,
Maybe time takes away the yearning after all,
For I lazily lay inside,
Some drops did touched me,
Made me feel a little more than complete,
Providing relief as it always has been,
For things blended with the rain,
My happiness and sadness sang its way,
Tears became invisible to the eyes,
And Sadness washes away,
Even the little drizzly drops feel nice,
A cool breeze or a wild storm still better than a hot loo filled day,
For I haven't still not got much of the monsoon rain,
Here I locked myself,
Lay and lay,
Even still the rain try to pleases me up,
For I Slept and Slept till nothing is to be done. .   . .

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I wouldn't disturb you

Here I lay on this bed,

Living or dying,

Nobody except my kins,

Cared at all,

For I may never say and wouldn't ,

Say this at all,

For I need your help ,

I wouldn't for I expect much of you all,

But wouldn't trouble your busy time up,

And expect something out of sympathy ,

If I need to die alone then be it,

I wouldn't say it,

I wouldn't disturb you. . .

Shadow

An arm to reach out through the dark,

To break free from the torments of self and others,

Wanted to walk under the moonlight,

To enjoy my pleasure filled time of day,

As I am a shadow,

From thy past,

Someone who is there from the start,

In dark surrounding you all around,

And in light mimicing you,

For I know all your secrets and doing,

Yet I'm bounded not to speak,

Still I carry the words around,

Spreading it around in somebody's ear,

As no one could escape himself,

The sin done would be made,

And you would eat it too,

For life is too short to escape. . . . .

By being with you. . .

There is always things,

I wanted to say to you before I die,

For maybe time wouldn't last much,

To say it all,

My breath till last,

Loved you to the core,

Those moments we spend,

Was more than we know,

The touch we yearn for now,

Skin urges it's thrist for yours',

Something was magical after all,

For it was love,

That did took off my mind,

Settling me out on a urge,

To finish my unfulfilling thrist,

By being with you. . . .

Surrounded by no one

When earlier I close my eyes,

I was surrounded by no one,

Now is like known strangers,

Maybe it was better I was lost,

For no one there or not there,

Doesn't matter at all,

But now I'm still alone,

No one there,

Eyes rolled left and right,

No one there,

Maybe I should this one right here and die,

Dying for now. . . .

The winter rain

Nothing more than a little rain I missed,

The rustling up of leaves of tree,

A weird sensation,

Some tinkling clear drops of rain,

Rambling of the clouds,

Drenched up earth,

Some more talks,

Birds and dogs finding shelter,

Maybe I should wet up some little,

Feel up and enjoy a little more,

Crackling voice on the shed,

Drops droping on the knee,

Kinda feel good as I'm now,

Laying on the swing,

Knowing that yet more cold is to come,

Things never over until you are done with it,

It stays in the exact same state or may rot a little or more,

They are always some unfinished business to finish,

Maybe I should need a day off something,

From the normal routine,

Like the rain,my friend,

A little break and back to the work. .

My tale of last poem

My tale of the last poem,

For other maybe scared to it,

I may welcome it with my arms,

Smiling at it and happy to end other's misery,

For I long awaited for you,

Night and day had gone praying to be answered,

For it took so long to be answered,

I welcome thy wid warm arms,

A tight hug to end this all,

For this soul has tortured many,

Take it away,

Nurtured it in the depths of hell,

For it deserved to be there,

For it deserved to be there,

Let me welcome you with warm arms,

And together we end this all along. . .

Lot happening

A lot happen everyday,

Nothing much can be done about it though,

People can't be changed,

Things can be,

Still we are surrounded by weak fickle minded people,

Doing everything like a herd of sheep,

Under the tongue of the shepherd,

Blindly doing what is command,

This thing has been going for long,

Some would come and change the game,

Still we are bounded to the herd,

For thing can be changed but people can't. . . .

Day dreams

Sometimes it better to day dream,

To kill ya feelings and mind,

Sometimes it is good others,

A smile on the face,

Whether true or not,

I guess its like hakuna matata,

No worries,no nothing,

No saying to others,

Just being there is enough,

Maybe I forgotted this thing,

Dead is the end,

Dead are the things,

Dead is the me. .  :)

A silent conversation

A silent conversation,

Two people sitting apart,

Having a silent conversation,

The night had taken up its place as usual,

This one no words actually were exchanged,

Just a pui pui was exchanged,

Sometimes being there is enough,

I think,maybe I'm right?,

The two had ears to ears,

And had a silent conversation . . . .

A something new of alone

A something new of alone,

Maybe I deserve to be alone,

For my actions and my past-present doings,

Why I couldn't  be just contended with the fact,

"You deserve to be alone",

That's what the inside told,

You don't deserve anybody,

For you are rotted to hell for now,

In the end the run is to end,

Why couldn't I make it end now?,

For I'm too cowardice to face myself to do that,

Muster up courage I say,

End this run the inside say,

For then the things would stop getting bothered,

From my deeds. . .

A eaten up me. . . .

A eaten up me,

Let me revive me,

A little of this and that wouldn't help,

Need some music in my blood,

On the secondary note,

Eat me up,

Don't leave a trace,

For I don't care about it,

All those words that people speak,

Its better to be hollow then being eaten up,

Here I lay against the wall,

With music in my ears,

Notes against my legs,

Maybe god answers my prayers soon,

A long night to go,

A long night to go. . .

Hold me

Spread your arms,

Find me there,

For I'm always here,

Standing at the same place,

Where you left me,

Spread ya arms,

Feel me again,

Let me be with you again,

To wipe away those tears,

To hold those fingers,

Hold me,Hold me,

For I already had lost my will to live,

And I lived it to love you the fullest,

So spread ya arms,

Feel me for a while,

So that I could take care of you. . .

Night poem

One of the nights poems,

Long time ago,

When I lay with closing my eyes,

Things used to change up,

Weird thoughts begin to turn true,

Things we never thought started to turn cool,

For if bad or worse it turned,

I would wake up,

Realizing it was all fluke,

For it gave some way into my mind,

Some imaginations and some more,

For it happened with most of all,

Characters start to take up life,

Beats of heart was controlled as it dream ran,

Nothing felt fake,

For it was real,

No one could just crawl out easy of it,

For now I should try sleeping,

Nice and easy,

To continue what I did long time before. . .

Night is long for me

Night is long for me,

Not for you,

So I bid you night,

For setting you up your boat in sail,
To sail through the ethery sky,
Have a part of the dreams,
Something new and fantastical filled up in mind for later,

Till you complete ya journey of the night,

To welcome the rise of new day,

With little stretches and yawns,

Would go out and try something new,

That you need to do,

And for the others,

For this life is just not yourself,

Maybe it is need for others too,
Connected connected you are,

Your unfulfilled hunger would leave someone empty stomach too,
For killing yourself would take away someone’s soul away too,
Maybe at the end your existence may matter at the end,

Time is less for now for everything,

Grab what you can you can do

And live your life. . .